I came to him as someone else. I didn't make it clear enough I wasn't myself. I broke my vows and he thinks it's his fault. I tried to offer him absolution he didn't want, and I don't have the power anymore to give. I told him I want to die. I flinched away from his hand. I didn't let Lan Wangji touch my mind even though it's what he wanted. I asked him questions through a messenger after I said I would let him alone. I still want him to take me back.

He's too overwhelmed with possibilities to speak. It's been so long since he had to try and remember how to express himself -- it's been five years with Percival, and Percival always understood him without much effort. Everything here is emotions and explanations and Galahad freezes under the prospect. He shakes his head at Shen Qingqiu.