"Yeah," says Shen Yuan. "For him or me, though it feels very dramatic and self-pitying to say. I've always had good things, nice things. Money. My family loved me. But this is—" He almost stops himself, but what are bros for if not for being your most cringe self, knowing you won't be mocked? "—it feels like the first thing I've ever really wanted, without lying to myself about it. So I'm scared I'll fuck it up, and if I don't, something else will."